So I sent the letter and as you can guess we made up. He felt awful. Kind of felt like he should have brought me flowers….he didn’t. I guess the Marc Jacobs bag I ordered this week will just have to make up for it! I haven’t been married a long time but feel like since we work together we have spent more time together than most couples do in ten years- well ok maybe five. What I have learned is that I will probably never change my husband. He is whI o he is and I am who I am. He is very temperamental and is extremely stubborn and I am pretty stubborn myself. Not a good mix. What matters is how we deal with each other. He really needed a yes wife which I am not. But he also loves that I stick up for myself and wouldn’t respect the yes wife. I am trying to find our balance. We are a team and need to work together. I am totally dreading going to the doctor tomorrow but it is what it is.
I think I am going to see if there is another pill option other than clomid- one that doesn’t freak me out about going blind. Hopefully I am pregnant and it won’t matter but you never know. The first time I was preggers I found that I felt faint and tired. Last night I fell asleep on the couch and thought I was going to die when I went upstairs to be. This could be from the wine that I had or could be a sign. I did have a couple of glasses yesterday given the situation and am still hoping I am pregnant! I started reading Bethanny Frankel’s book yesterday on being naturally thin, in conjunction with my whole healthy living concept. So far my take away is that I like her theories but don’t agree on some of her ingredients. In particular she seems to use a lot of soy milk which I have read mixed things on…but he she just had a baby and got pregnant unexpectedly so maybe I a should give soy a chance!
Tonight he is coming home from work early and we are going to have a nice dinner on our roof top deck. I can’t believe it is 90 degrees out! Hopefully a good meal and little sunshine will put things right between us again. BTW- this could be clo but normally I would hold a grudge with him so much longer than this- maybe I am just so needy for support that I am moving along a lot quicker- maybe I just need a friend in all of this.