Lemonade Baby- Lemonade! I am thirteen weeks and 3 days today and think I am finally ready to rock this pregnancy! Last night I needed to run a couple of errands and decided to see what happens if instead my usual MO of hiding it….I flaunt the prego bod. So I strapped on a pair of balls and a sexy dress and headed to the store. I don’t think I could do the dress justice in describing it so I think a visual is needed- see pic but imagine a voluptuous blond in it instead. In the spirit of trying something new, I let my blond waves flow and headed out sporting my porn star boobs and belly bulge. I haven’t left the house wearing this number before because I felt too self conscious. Even in the house I usually threw a sweater on over it. I decided what the hell. So what if people think I am a little chunky- who cares? I am three months pregnant and 37 and I think I look pretty damn good. I mean isn’t everyone drooling right now over the curvaceous Joan on Madmen? Isn’t a little junk in the trunk (and belly) kind of sexy? Let’s have a little fun with this shall we?
So I sauntered out of the house and down the street strutting my stuff. I caught a couple looks on the way and even the streetwise guy told me my dress was sexy. Not bad. Not bad at all….Until I ran into my neighbor and her two kids in the store. To add a little color- this neighbor isn’t someone I know very well in fact I don’t even know her name. She hasn’t exactly been the most welcoming gal on the block despite the fact that I always have a friendly greeting for her. Based on my observations, I don’t think she shares the love of fashion that I do and she seems more than comfortable rocking the mom uniform- Capri-pants a plain tee shirt and flip flops- no judgment here- to each their own- I have lived in the neighborhood two years and have never seen here in anything else. I have no doubt in my mind that she would not be caught dead in a snakeskin dress! I wasn’t facing her when I noticed her- but out of the corner of my eye saw a smile on her face turn to a look of disgust as she gave me a once over. I wasn’t sure what to do with this. I couldn’t decide if this reaction made my fashion risk more of a success or if it was a bit much. I will tell you that I definitely felt self conscious in front of the little kids with my girls on full display-so the jury is out- maybe the dress is more Saturday night apropos than errand worthy. What I did learn is that I am done worrying about it. Who cares? Pregnancy doesn’t change who I am on the inside and shouldn’t change how I express myself on the outside. I don’t have to feel self conscious. I need to keep my self confidence in tact and quit worrying about my bootyliciousness!
So this morning I woke up feeling better than ever. Could I finally be nearing the end of my heinous morning sickness? This is so exciting I want to scream at the top of my lungs! I was so excited that I pulled a cute outfit together out of nowhere and am rocking my 5 inch strappy sandals today. Why not? The security guard in my building said “good morning Diva” to me as I walked in so I guess I am on the right track! I think tonight I am actually going to try and get work out in. Dare I say it? I bought two prego DVD’s but haven’t been feeling well enough to do either one. I think tonight is the night! So I will keep you posted on if I would recommend them. I am now thinking about what to have for lunch. Still no cravings but everything doesn’t sound gross. What a difference a day makes….Now this is pregnancy I can get my back in to!