What to Expect When You are Not Expecting

My adventure of getting pregnant over 35 starting with clomid

Craving a craving! August 4, 2010

According to both my iphone apps (Sprout and What to Expect) I have officially entered my second trimester and my baby is the size of a lemon. Aren’t lemons smaller than peaches? Did my baby shrink this week? Is my pregnancy a lemon? I am going to just assume that they were referring to a smallish peach and a large lemon and that my baby is still growing strong! The books say that this is the time where I should start showing and have cravings.  It is also said that my morning sickness should be subsiding.  Wrong.  I must admit I am rather jealous of all the other PL’s out there who are getting cravings. Why can’t I have a craving? Is it so wrong to want a craving? I was reading some other blogs and everyone else seems to be past the morning sickness point and interested in food. I seriously could not name a single food that sounds good to me. I am still pretty nauseous and when I am hungry and I make myself eat snacks but find them barely palatable. Food is not my friend and so unappetizing. If I wasn’t terrified of feeling awful and starving my baby I would have no desire to eat- but love of the bebe prevails and so it is I have a snack. No wonder I haven’t gained much weight yet- secretly thrilled by this but also perplexed.

It’s funny I don’t really look very pregnant either. I look bloated and maybe a little chunky (awesome)  but not pregnant. I haven’t met a pair of pants that doesn’t still fit me. This is a good thing because I am sure the day they don’t fit will suck but not there yet. Let’s hope it holds off until fall when I can rock a nice legging! I wouldn’t even dream of entering a maternity store- yes I have an aversion to them- but really I don’t need maternity clothes and when my Mom was here this weekend she kept pressing my dresses in looking for a bump. I am by no means complaining on this regard but the morning sickness seriously needs to stop already. Take the sickness and give me the bump and the cravings stat! I have accepted the fact that I will feel like crap when I first get out of bed in the morning. I reassure myself all morning long that if I can get through getting ready I can sit in the car and rest for a bit. Seriously my ride to work is now my reward. What would I do without hubby who makes sure I have breakfast every morning and drives to work while I rest? A quick shout out to my love for that! I try to reward him by wearing low cut tops at home- he actually told me last night that my boobs look like a porn star. If he brings home dinner tonight perhaps I can reward him with a push- up bra!

Speaking of bras- any suggestion on a buying schedule for when you are pregnant. Do they make convertible bras that can stay through a few sizes? I need to look into this more. As for the morning sickness I have faith that it will subside someday soon and will continue my quest for a desirable meal. You know what they say….when life gives you lemons make lemonade and that is just what I intend to do.